First Responders of a Different Kind

Ok. This started out as a Facebook post and got way too long. Shocking, right!?!?!? I want to give a huge shout out to my musician friends. I know many professions have taken a hit. I know many professions are considered first responders. I’m sad for those who have lost their jobs. I’m grateful for…

Hanging On By a Thread

It’s 4:00am. A typical time for me to be awake. I hear the hum of the air conditioner and the dinging from my laptop in my office from that middle-of-the-night spam mail hitting my inbox. I guess I forgot to silence it before bedtime. God forbid I get up to shut it up. I’d rather…

The Tears of the Choir World

There is a world of tears and grief in the choir world these days.  Let’s face it.  We have read enough in both the news and people’s opinions that group activities, and some go as far to say, “especially choirs”, will not be back in action any time soon. Some say it won’t be the…

Are You Ok?

Are you ok? Three words that are so loaded. At this moment, I am ok, and borderline not ok.  I’ll be honest.  I know me well enough to know when I am heading into a possible dark place.  The first give away to me is that my home is not as neat and tidy as…

I’ve Looked at Life from Both Sides Now

I just spent the last 45 minutes driving around in a search for any addiction I could get my hands on…..shopping…spending money….food……even a drink sounded good. I said the word over and over that a friend recently told to me to try to help: Refocus. So….here I am…blogging over steamed chicken and broccoli from Pick…

Oh Social Media…….

This morning, I woke up to a person from my past, passing judgement on one of my pictures from the Women’s March, 2019.  She stated that my post was disrespectful.  I haven’t seen her since 1988.  I guess she felt justified to say what she felt, after not saying anything else about other aspects of…

The Constant of Christmas

I remember the Christmas season of 2010 well.  It was one of those messy Christmases.  Two months prior, after a 12-year marriage, my husband had moved out and we were in the final stages of our divorce.  It was our first Christmas on our own; my stepson also living in his own place.  Christmases with…

I’m Toxic!!

Well now that I have your attention, I need to explain.  The truth is, I am.  I am toxic in my mind, my body, and my spirit, and that’s just not good.  I feel like absolute run-down crap.  I’d like to say I’m not to blame and I would like to blame this on everything…

Dear Bella,

Dear Bella, My love, it has been a little over 5 months since I put you to rest… since I’ve seen you, pet you, watched you play, heard all of the many sounds you make – the ones while I kissed your neck, the ones where you hound to eat an hour before dinner time,…

The Business of Fat-Shaming

This will be a hard one to write.  I’ve kind of been putting it off all morning after being triggered by a video I saw on Facebook.  I’ve been walking around wondering how I even organize my thoughts on this. So much of it is wrapped up in the past, which is my constant work…

To Hell With Past Burdens

There are many things that you may know about me.  I’m somewhat of an open book. Why?  I believe that we are on this planet to help each other and to learn from each other’s life experiences. I believe it is a privilege to learn from you and hopefully you feel the same about me. …

An Excuse for Each Victim

Three mass shootings in America in 1 week.  Just thinking about how my first response was to be sad, angry, place blame, argue, spread that anger and sadness, and not do the one thing I should have done first.  I didn’t read the names of the victims and who they were. Have I become that desensitized…